Love’s suicide

If I were to cry right now

I’d cause a stream to flow

Sitting here remembering all memories of you, I know

Why on earth would I risk heaven

To be with you

Take my own life to be beside you

I taste the tears

Trickle down my cheek and over my lip

As I remember your touch, your fingertips

Around my shoulders and down my back

Love, I remember the laughter for which you had a knack

I remember your scent

Baby, you know I keep a photo of your fingerprint?

To always remind me of how you’d feel

If they didn’t steal

If they hadn’t killed

What made me smile

Early Saturday mornings I stared at you awhile

Smelling the pillow that you’ll never lay on again

Smelling the cologne you’ll never spray on again

Sweetheart, kissing your picture while in it you pose

Placing my feet in your shoes and wiggling my toes

Pulling your sweatshirt over my head

If only you knew how many times I’ve worn it to bed

Just to feel like I’m in your presence

Your spirit is intoxicating, I call it your essence

The simplest thing like washing the car or bringing me flowers

I have to be strong, you hated a coward

Only if you knew how difficult it would be

To lose my heart, now your spirit is free

Isn’t it sad how death moves in

And makes everything shift

Taking a lover and a friend

No time for goodbyes, no chance for I love you’s

No hour of comfort, no moment to soothe you

I never would have thought things would become so clear

With no one to listen, no one can hear

The silent death that’s slowly consuming

The stereo is loud and the speakers are booming

The pull of a trigger

My mind not weighted

Life for death I quickly traded

With the glimpse of a thought to see you again

I am now ready to face the end

I love you.....

Silence all around me and above too

As I lay upon the creamy carpet

Watching my blood escape my body

Feeling no pain, oddly

I hope you were without pain at the fleeting time

My thoughts are scattered, a bereaving sign

In and out of consciousness, I’m slowly dying

My breaths flow sparingly

The end is near but our beginning is again

I know that this choice isn’t without sin

But what is life if you’ve lost love

There is no answer

When you were all I dreamnt of